liberated

2 things happened today that made me want to use my new born freedom to run up and down the halls but the whole cracked pelvis thing stopped me. But really, I was detached from my I.V. No more pole with bags of solutions and tubes running down into my veins. Of course the I.V. Stayed in for any future injections I made need. Secondly, my catheter came out! No more bag-o-pee connected to me. Although the idea of not having to get out of to go potty sounds pretty nice at times I won't cry now that its gone. Now I gotta stop drinking so much water so I don't have to go so often. Bottom line: I was liberated today. Progress feels good however small it is. Speaking of progress I stood with my walker today for like 25 minutes. My dad and brother were there to help me and cheer me on. My physical therapist didn't show up again and I didn't really feel like pushing myself but I know if I want to get out of here I have to do a little more than I did yesterday and push myself. Like other times, when I first stand up there is some pain aching and throbbing going on in my leg. It takes my breath away. I can't find a good stance to get comfortable in. I got a little emotional as one voice in my head, the negative one, brought to mind how a stupid bike ride brought all this about. How my week in the hospital thus far has had some real rough patches and how a few small steps with the walker could be considered very little progress at all. But the fighter in me, the positive voice of truth inside me, did not let me quit while I stood there hurting in that moment. I pressed on through it. I said positive things out loud to myself ..."just breathe"... "you're doing good". It doesn't matter if you're talking to yourself if you're telling yourself the truth - right? I know a guy in the past who endured a lot more pain for my sake. Do you know him? The Bible says in Philippians 3:13-14 something regarding this type of perseverance and choice to endure ... "But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal (to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus)." .